Silence

Today there is so much of silence around. The quiet seems to disturb. There are not many occasions when I get this quiet. But for a change I am not happy about it. A blue day maybe. But to think and feel that life will have to go on like this for some time to come in this calm is something I do not want to think of. There is a fear within me and maybe when your face to face to with your fears come the silence. However it is serene. And in my mind I can hear my conscience saying this TOO SHALL PASS. I am not sure what it is that makes it this way. But these phases of silence maybe be necessary in the hullabaloo called LIFE. Its not about breaking free . Its not about getting yourself into the whirlpool every other time. Its about the moment and truly feeling it!

Some people can handle their loneliness while others cant. If were you to know me well you would think I can . But sadly i would like to admit that I cannot and my understanding is that no one can . You cannot fight your loneliness pretending you can handle it. You need that something to keep going. Maybe we are just so caught up with our pseudo identities that we fail to touch the inner self. The voice deep down inside. We fail to recognize and wrap ourselves in constant denial of a very known fact. It is normal to be feel lonely and feel the Silence.

A memorable FIFA 2010

Most of us have had late nites - thanks to the timezone ! Nevertheless every moment of the FIFA 2010 has been totally worth it and memorable . I am going to miss it so much. Having followed most of the matches with my limited knowledge of Fußball.
We had our fancy calenders for our match schedules...

We had upsets and more upsets.. France, Italy, Brazil, Argentina, Germany ,Ivory Coast ,Ghana and Portugal largely...... !!!

It brought together as people who wouldnt never normally connect, right from facebook to work.The vuvuzela - the jabulani...waka waka and the waving flag will stay on our minds for some time...

Then there was Paul...the oracle.. the psychic octopus.. who was right 7/7 dont know about 8/8.
There was also the Paraguan Lingerie Model.... covered on all channels, news papers - who vowed to uncover if her country won...
The day this show began, i remember everyone person I knew saying it was Argentina or Brazil were the takers.But they did flirt with defeat...and lost ...
Netherlands ?? Spain?? who would have thought! But they did it..for either of them first time world champions is phenomenal.
There was so much of emotion floating.. everywhere. Today its over.. and the next world cup who knows ... where we will be.. we will just have memories of watching beautiful play together over beers and binging on foooddd..will still have facebook/twitter for our status updates..
I will totally miss my German boys, Kaka, Villa, Drogba, Henry,Iniesta, Torres, Gyan,Sneijder ... may be not if I am going to follow the league matches!!!

45 mins to the end of this the memorable FIFA 2010...:(

moving on :)

Why is moving on such a difficult phase? Why do you have to move on?
Thats like a people word. Everyone loves to use it - especially when they mean well for you! But it is annoying...I mean again its not like you sleep over stuff and you can move on!
Moving on happens ...over time it does.. but the more you ask some one to move on the more pissing off it is! Time is a great healer and with time people do move on . Besides everyone person can figure out for themselves .

A lot of people need to revisit the situation, person before they final take one big steps. Many rather that they do the baby steps instead and eventually one day BOOM ! Reality check!

The more you think about it the worse it gets. Sometimes you just cant do it even when you know your answers.Constant denial!! We cannot embrace the situation and that makes it tougher. But everyone has this realization when its time to get over with whatever it is ! Some can faster than the others .

So relax and take a deep breath - the next time some one says move on! Smile and say you will.
Sooner than ever.

TC

Take care - TC is a very commonly used phrase in the English language. We generally use it as a closure to a conversation, informal meet, break up, never to meet again, will see you tomorrow or (i hate your face but - you need to take care ...lol.. anyway.. so we use this word again and again and so often. That TC has lots it meaning. Before hanging up on a call I said the magic words to a friend of mine!! and he bolted back saying - GIVE ME SOME CARE... if you cant give some why are you even asking me to Take CARE. I was taken aback , and i actually found it amusing. The friend though dear to me, I have never bothered checking on him ever , we speak once in 3 years so to say. Although I really meant it when I said it - he didn't take it at face value. How many times do we use words- sentences- phrases only because they have so become a part of our lingo / the jargon!!!

Another one is Sorry!!!
Oops, I am so sorry ! (what she/he is actually saying is "you (&)&%^& i cant mend it anymore" and im done with you ..next!!!).
You break someone's favorite vase and all you can is sorry - your not going to buy her a new one.
Someone lost a friend and you really want to sympathise - your going to say - probably google something appropriate - "Im so sorry about your loss" You mean it - but your not going to be around to "be there" sort of thing!!!!

I gotta sign off right - so sorry for not writing this through - i know someone is really going hate
Signing off
Take care people :P

Blue!

There are days when you really don want anything out of this crazy world!! You want peace.!!!
You want to shut the world up and sit in quite corner and no let anyone invade your space and your territory. You draw the line. You feel so shitty about drawing the line but you still draw it!!! Cos it your line and you don want anyone to cross it. You've had enough of it. ENOUGH.

Follow your dream

While you are sitting out there in front of television set watching America's got talent or some sitcom or who-know's - what.. Someone there is following a dream and getting there.

Your dream is as big as it seems. The power of imagination takes it places. But you still want to sit down easy and just go with the flow. You know that you dont fit in here. This is not your place. You still procrastinate. Its so normal to just let your dreams just be - like some figments of your imagination. Why do we let something else take over? Circumstances ? (Blame it on them) Situations?? as synonymous but there is thin line of difference !! I will not explain cos you already know or will atleast think through..........

I will write more when i can..

Not my type!!!

When we say your not my type we really really mean it.

We don't mean to be rude or anything, we just mean "Your not our type". It has nothing to do with your "Cool quotient", "6 pack""Intelligence" "Math""Looks" "you being chubby""sex appeal". We are not shallow. We just feel that its not we do not like you but we dont see us getting anywhere.

We really cannot explain ! You know! Its like when you talk about sport -man "U", chelsea etc. See we do understand all of that but it doesn't work for us sometimes.

We know you are a breed - but something is not right, and when something is not right - we use the phrase "Your just not my type". The fact is that we don't know what it is . It becomes really awkward for us to give you an explanation cause we cannot explain and detail. And if you are looking for logic ! Its not happening.

It may stem from the smallest thing - "You don't talk enough" You talk but then you don't say the things we want you talk about. Just like you don't like us talking about Ex'es we don't find many conversations interesting :) (more to come!!!)